"I've Had Enough" Written March 18, 2012

I don't think I need your help,

Messing up my life,

Telling me to go to Hell,

Even giving me a free chariot ride.

Who do you think you are?

Thinking you can make me give myself to you.

Without you I will go far,

Without the stress of being tied down to you.

And then you say that I went crazy,

Leavin' you, What was I thinking?

My heart was made up I just need someone to say,

This isnt what I'm deserving.

So go on now call me all the names you want,

Being so immature,

But this is my life that you're lusting after,

I want to try and stay pure.

And then you would try to guilt me into it,

Didn't know that I was smart enough.

To just let you go,

Say I've had enough.

"No Longer Your Love" Written March 17, 2012

I'm just a fifteen year old girl,

Stuck in my own little world,

When you tried to fit in there,

My brain was in control, my heart was scared.

I don't need anyone to be happy,

I don't need a guy standing here beside me.

Trust me I've tried,

To rely on them, but my heart was denied.

I'm standing on my own again,

Stepped off the road with you to pave a new way.

Through uncharted lands,

My heart is mine to defend.

Don't need a knight or his noble steed,

My friends, my family that's all I need.

When my knight turned into a dragon,

My heart was nervous and slowly breaking.

Maybe my self-esteem isn't at an all-time high,

I'm not perfect but that's alright.

Maybe one day I'll find a guy who sees through my flaws,

One who has love instead of greedy paws.

But until them I'll watch the sun set through my own eyes,

I won't have to live through the lies.

Consider me gone by morning,

I don't want to be tied down anymore, darling.

So why don't you let your heart forget me?

And stop trying to love me.

I'm just a girl, not your fate,

Please move on it's not too late.

I'll pull my mask up so you can't see my face,

Open the door and walk away.

Just let me go, you never faught for me in the first place,

Time for me to break away.

It's better to be unhappy alone,

Than to be happy with someone who stole away your hope.

I want to be free counting the stars,

Knowing there's nothing to change where we turned out.

I can't calm the storm you've brought on yourself,

I can't help the fact you didnt listen to my cry for help.Don't cry for me or the lack of,

I'm no longer your love.

Possible Song... "Don't let it slip by" Written March 5, 2012

One Mississippi,

Two Mississippi,

Three Mississippi,Oh!

Don't let your life slip by,

Holding onto empty feelings.

Don't curse the world tonight,

Unless you know you mean it.

You've got a lot going for you.

Everything you take for granted.

Lets show the world what it means to you,C'mon just take my hand. Yeah.

Don't let the seconds get away.

It's as simple as one, two, three

"About Me" Written February 29, 2012

There's a lot about me people don't know,

A lot of emotions I will never show.

Like those nights all I can do is sit and cry,

And I can't sleep so I get to watch the dark turn to light through my sleepy eyes.

And maybe math isn't my specialty,

The a plus b equals c means nothing to me.

But you hand me a pencil and tell me to write what's on my heart,

And I finish up, no time flat, and hand you a piece of art.

I love my parents, they helped me grow up,

But there have been times when all I can think to do is run.

I have the greatest friends someone could ask for,

They keep me here to live a while more.

"You Don't Know" Written February 27, 2012

These are the times I wish I could complain,

But you still dont believe me, it's always the same,

I apologised for the lies,

But I still think you just try to accuse me while you say you're on my side.

And so what?! I'm weak,

But I've learned not to say anything until I'm bleeding.

Life is harder than it used to be,

With all the drama, the lies, and the bullying.

You say that the bullying just means that they notice me,

But you're not the victum, you werent even at the scene.

So in my eyes you have no room to speak,

You have no idea what it's like to be me.

You never lived with the disease,

Or the pain or the thought that your life could end when you're not ready to leave.

I'm scared of this world and what it can do to me,

But theres a time where you just gotta come clean.

I've got scar tissue building up from IVs,

Every day I bleed and bleed just to get an accurate reading,

And sometimes you yell at me if I'm forgetful,

Because my lifes on the line so I cant be human.

"Why?" Written February 26, 2012

There are people in this world that you would die for,

But then they look at you through life's blindfold.

They've been blind by tears, but when you try to save them,They turn their backs and run away from you.

And maybe all these words I'm speaking are gibberish,

Cause you might not speak the caring languge,

I've been told I've got a heart of gold,

But when I fail to get through to you I feel so broken.

I've got a past that isn't clean,

But to me my past is just a memory,

It doesnt control the future me,

I will strive to live with all of my being.

But watching you throw your life away,

Just hurts inside like no other pain.

It's a pain I've been through time and time before,

When a friend of mine just cant take anymore.

So I reach out,

To you now,

But you withdraw,

And so you fall.

You keep trying to find the happiness but you run away from it,

You hate this life when youre the one who built it.

You know the thought of losing you makes me feel sick,

But its hard for me to give up and say I'm over it.

I'd hate to let you go with out a word,

You say you'll let me go so it doesnt hurt,

But you know that this is just not the way,

When tomorrow everything might be okay.

So you lift the bottle and pull the trigger,

It was just a waste of time for me to be here,

None of my words ever occured to you,

That there are people here for when you feel like you're through.

Maybe its time for us to split up,

Cause now my heart is having a hard time keeping up.

Youre just a mess who wont accept help,

And instead of living in peace, you made your own version of Hell.

"You Shot The First Bullet"

The tears I cry are for you,

For the many songs you sang.

My arms out stretched toward you,

Just feel to feel you fade away.

What happened to my happy place,

Wrapped in your arms?

Is there no place I can stay,

To be surrounded by warmth?

Why do I feel,

Like you took my heart and you know it?

Love's a battlefield,

And you shot the first bullet.

So I'm already wounded,

When you found me.

You cradled me in your arms,

And sing me to sleep.

But not long after,

You strike me with your whip of lies.

You walk away from me,

As your love for me dies.

I stood there like a child,

Left alone in a solitary home.

By the time I cried out,

You were already gone.